So, this is as close to a behind-the-scenes look at how I’ve been bumbling through my education as you’re likely to get.  In short, the Topography of Athens class – the one I a) need and b) thought would be easy – kicked my rear.

I seriously can’t wait to move on to something I’m actually passionate about.  I currently miss class, put off assignments, avoid my textbooks, and draw (or journal) instead of taking notes.  The worst bit is, this is the only concentration available at my school that even remotely interests me.  Well… there was Film and Media, but the faculty and students had the uncanny ability to make me loathe humanity, so that got shelved.

I’m retaining next to nothing right now, and my willingness to learn is at an all time low.  I occasionally catch glimpses, have flashbacks, of the Queen’s I fell in love with in first year.  The new, exciting adventure that I couldn’t wait to dive into.  Who knew that such beautiful limestone buildings could house tedium and frustration?  Who knew that what began as a celebration of young minds coming together could turn into a windmill of generic education, propelled by the hot air of self-interested academics?

Ah, but I’m just projecting.  The real problem is an unshakeable laziness, that keeps me from achieving my potential.  Isn’t it funny how I can work on a mediocre and inconsequential webcomic for, oh, 6-8 hours straight every Saturday, but find it impossible (and I do mean impossible) to read a textbook for even a half hour in preparation for class?

I need a change… something that’ll let me take a more active role in deciding my future. Something that expands on my interests, and turns a hobby into a living.  Graphic design?  Photography?  Game art?  Animation?  I don’t what it’s going to be yet, just that it’s going to be centred around my current/preferred skill-sets.

MJ